after exams update

17 August 2018 

Its been a while since I last wrote and good news, EXAMS ARE OVER

honestly so relieved but as the same time lost ?? Because I don’t really know what to do rn since I don’t really have anything planned out for the long 2 months break but I’ll just see how it goes 

But of course, there are some few goals that I would really hope to achieve:

• Find a job 
• get more active, go hike, swim, run etc 
• Explore places with friends 
• Clean my room and decorate it 
• Read books 

that’s about it, I don’t wanna make this too long because I know I won’t be able to achieve all of those, because every damn time i have a holiday, i set myself goals to do as well and they are always left unaccomplished........

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Anyway two weeks prior to exams was the study break and at the start, I was really feeling very unmotivated and easily distracted. I had to drag my damn feet to my chair and even so, i rushed through to complete practise papers. after every question, i would just have the urge to reward myself by taking a small break which ends up an hour long and then i no longer had the motivation to any more work. this became a repeating,toxic cycle which i really really hate....... 

But after forcing myself to study and deleting Instagram (for a week), I found myself getting in it and in the momentum of happily enjoying my study sessions while jamming to some bops. 

Ps I don’t why did I discover this so late, but I knew WINNER existed and I knew their members and some really popular songs and the more recent one like REALLY REALLY AND 

EVERYDAY. But I actually didn’t listen to their songs till one day when YouTube was just auto playing their songs and omg I fell in LOVEEEE with their old songs. The songs have this really addictive rhythm and they are just pure goodness 

Some songs I really enjoy are :

Empty

Fool 

Love me love me 

Island 

These make my studying session a whole lot more enjoyable and also this recent old Chinese songs that just hits me in the feels called crescent moon Bay by FIR. i cant even explain it, it is just so good especially the cover version :')

anyway back to my study adventures.... as I said it wasn’t easy from the start and I had to go to Starbucks to actually get some work done. And just saying sb ain’t cheap cuz a drink is like $8 (venti- sized) so ya am kinda low key broke but it’s alright I think it’s kinda worth it cuz I was being quite productive ??? Went to the Rochester park one and the bigger branch at Suntec and gotta say I love the environment there. The Rochester one had a really nice vintage and earthy feel to it, very calming and comforting. While the Suntec one was brightly lit with glass windows and rather spacious which I really appreciate the industrial vibe of it. 

Soooo yea I went to Starbucks a few times here and there and also the national library as well as my neighbourhood library. But honestly nothing beats home, where everything is just so accessible and comfortable. Of course, downside is if you can get very easily distracted. But I think I am pretty good at cancelling any form of distraction when I REALLY want to study. I mean, i had my brother constantly talking to me and showing me stupid videos which i could easily turn to and look but i decided to ask him to shut up. i think i did well HAHAHHA 

Anyway, had a ton of definitions and theory to remember for pmkt and som. Worst part is most of them didn’t even actually came out and those that I didn’t study actually did. Zzzz this shit always happens but I guess I could answer majority of the questions and I’m not someone who gets really affected and all depressed after a bad paper so I’m fine. 

For AAA I thought the paper was pretty easy so I think I can score !!! IEF was a cheat because my friend’s tutor basically gave all the freaking hints which was really unfair but beneficial heheheh bcuz i got it from them too so ya just a few tougher questions but all’s good 

So I think I might be able to do rather well this semester?? Fingers cross and I really hope to get a GPA of 3.8 and above. Highly doubt so but man I hope 

So yes exams are officially over and me and my friends had a hard time on deciding where to go for our post celebration meal. I had to take charge and made all the decisions (99% of the time because they always say anything ..... ) but we ended up at a Korean bbq restaurant at Westgate cuz I have actually never been there before and I wanted to explore a new place. 

When we got there it was already 1.30 and they were closing at 2.30 so we only had an hour to eat. 

The selection is pretty good I guess with various cooked Korean food, meat, vegetables and ICE CREAM :-) 

Didn’t really enjoy the cooked food but the meat is pretty ok so I ate lots of them with lettuce in a wrap. I prob ate like 500g of meat or sth, I really just keep eating and eating. But it was so satisfying and it’s been a while since I had Korean bbq so I just wanted to give myself a treat heh. Ended off with some creamy vanilla ice cream which was honestly, in my opinion, better than McDonalds. But a pity I couldn’t stuff anymore because I was really really full by that time.

We then walked around the whole mall and then to Jem. Stopping at NBC, Kinokuniya, Muji,innisfree, H&M and more.

While i was at kino, I chanced upon really interesting and thought provoking books on psychology and philosophy like inside the mind of a sociopath and the Lucifer effect or sth which I found pretty cool but I knew i would just toss it aside after I bought it so I didn’t get anything. ( I still had lots of books to read since my last book purchase in Dec 2017 since I barely touched them lol, am not proud of it) 

Hopefully I can get into the habit of reading as I actually really do enjoy reading but I find reading a physical copy of book so much harder than using my phone ?? I can’t even explain why but maybe I have just gotten so used to using my phone.

Me and my friends basically walked around and window shopped for like 3 hours before finding a corner to sit down and chill for a little while before heading home. I went home alone and the the train ride felt especially long because I had no one to talk to but my phone keeps me company. 

side note: my left side of the earpiece spolit and i can only listen through the right one so ill have to get a new one soon, which probably isnt cheap cuz its from Apple. But necessities. 

That’s basically my day and just an update of what’s happening in these few weeks.

Also, some bad things happened as well.

My parents were arguing last night on my brother’s new wardrobe as it was being done by my father's friend company and my Mother thinks they were charging way too much soooo ya long story short, they argued pretty loudly and I thought they would reconcile by today. But seems like it is not the case and they are currently having Cold War..... hais... I really hate it but I can’t do anything about it so I just hope they talk it out soon and come to a consensus.

update: all is well, just a regular quarrel i guess so im glad 

Yep, so that’s about it so far and I will have some plans for the next few days because it’s my friend's birthday on Monday and we will have to make the gift and I also need to buy ingredients to cook for her so that’s that. Also the Singapore Night Festival is happening and I really want to go to see with my friends so hopefully I can get to do that this weekend too. 

Right, so I’m gonna sleep soon because it’s already 12.40 am so yes I’ll update soon. Bye 

Love, 

Wei

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